Don't worry.

Ok, so things are going better and have settled into a routine. I feel better and that is the main thing. I am starting to get motivated again and I really do have a lot to do, I hope that I will be able to get some of it done today. My life is on the brink of going up or down, and I am going to try to do everything I can to make sure it goes in the right direction. The prospects look good, but I dont want to say anything, because I dont want to jinx it. The one thing that I have realized is that my goal to move back to Latvia next year seems more and more less likely. There is one prospect which would be great, because I could help Latvia from here, but like I said I dont want to jinx it. I went through some of my old posts and realized that I have been blogging off and on for 5 years. That is pretty crazy. There isnt a whole lot of substance there, but the fact that I still do it is pretty cool. It would be nice to have a function for this blog, but for the most part this blog is just a place to put my random thoughts and updates of my life that are longer then the 140 characters of twitter. It is interesting when I hear that people actually read this, because I dont really write for others, but it is nice to think that someone thinks this is worth reading. Anyway, that is all for now.

I cant believe that its over. I dont want it to be over. Why did i let it be over. Can i still do something? No, its over. That sucks.

I find it amazing that everytime something like this happens i turn on the radio and they play my songs.

I hate everything.

I am trying to avoid doing what i always do in these situations. I know that it wont end well. I am tired of feeling like crap. I am awesome.

Why do I keep screwing up relationships?

A neutron walks into a bar and orders a beer. The bartender says, 'for you...no charge'.

Bucket List: See the northern lights, Go to Austrialia, Drive from San Francisco to LA along the Pacific Coast Highway listening to the Beach Boys.

Wish List: Job, Apartment, Car, Drinking money, Girlfriend. In that order.

My first 4th of July that I am celebrating in the states in 7 years. It has been many months, but sometimes it still feels weird to be back in the U.S..

Why is my life never in balance? When one part is going great another is failing. I would be happy if everything was average as long as i can avoid the terrible